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Don't see any purpose...

Kritika — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 06:12:47 GMT

I wake up in the morning thinking wish I could vanish away from this world. I feel, there is no purpose of my life. People don't love me, they love themselves and thats why they pretend to love me because of attachment. Nobody understands me. Everyone tells me to think positive and to feel good about myself, but none tell me how. I am preparing for an exam that is supposed to be really tough, buut I don't think it is. I know I can do it, but when I sit to study I just wonder why am i doing it? I don't have any motivation or inspiration. I always put in my 100%, but I never get any results. I see all my classmates compared to whom I was far ahead in intellect and studies, are doing well in their lives and here I am sitting in parents' house and feeling worthless. I have had many emotional setbacks and my family doesn't understand what I am going through. I don't have any friends. I have a boyfriend who moved to some other country for studies. We try to be in touch, but I feel that he doesn't care for me and doesn't love me either. He has never brought anything positive in my life. He means a lot to me and many decisions that I've taken in life were keeping him in mind, but now I am stuck here and nobody is there to even understand what I am going through.

I appreciate you reading my post and would appreciate if someone can share some thoughts as I really want to come out of all this, but just don't know how.

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What about cyclothymic?

Ali Cat — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 00:53:45 GMT

I have a very special young friend who is very up and down in his moods. He seems to creat a crisis when things are going smooth. He has very long pauses between being asked a question and answering it especially when on the phone. He can not make a desission to save his life and is very( too much) laid back and always late. He discribes himself as Moody,but will swing on a every few day basis when very stressed and every few or 3 weeks when not stressed. One day he will be fired up to move out and seek a new job and get out of his present situation and within a few days he is back to just compromising and accepting the bad situation....help! I love this kid but I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Is this cyclothymic like behavior? the slow speach and long pauses between thoughts and question/ answer are very puzzeling and noticably out of sorts. Thank you A.C.

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Help

barker6786 — Fri, 30 Jan 2009 09:57:12 GMT

I can't stop the pain, I hate my life, don't know what to do...

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Just looking for any advice at all

me — Thur, 22 Jan 2009 18:24:00 GMT

Hi
I live alone and all of my friends are newly married and wanting to spend time with their new family or they are just plain sick of being around someone who is always sad (which I can understand) My mother makes things worse for me always telling me "your so lazy thats why your depressed and your gonna be just like your father" she divorced my father and hates him. Problem is that I happen to be a lot like my dad (I do have half his genes) and my mom always puts me down for that or telling me stuff like "of course nobody wants to date you, maybe if you lost weight you would look less like a man and some guy might think about giving you a chance" which is exactly why I live alone and have NOBODY to talk to. Im 26 and I find that going out to the clubs or public places often makes me feel worse the only thing that helps me make it through the day is to go to a place far from everything where Im totally alone and just sit and cry for a while, I usually have to do this on my lunch break from work also doing a complete cleaning of my house helps during the night (I cant sleep) Im talking cleaning to the point where I take a toothbrush to the tile grout. But since I cant sleep and Im now ALWAYS late to work and I worry its gonna cost me my job which would mean moving back in with my mother and that would kill me Im just hardly holding on as it is. Any suggestions?

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Going through a really bad struggle and its getting worse.

Richard — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 04:17:56 GMT

A couple of months ago I did something really stupid that caused me to end up in a really bad position in life. Right now I'm awaiting punishment for failing a urinalysis in the Army. My unit is strict and threatened me with years of confinement, but there are a lot of things that are unfair at this point. Past depression in my life has caused me to abuse drugs and alcohol to temporarily get away from the problems... I've made my mind up that I don't want to be confined for years and would rather just die... I've been lied to and mislead through all of this. I feel as if my fate is no longer in my hands. I'm now surrounded by multiple individuals who are in the same position. I'm confined to my living quarters and day by day waiting for the final decision from my command is driving me insane. I really have no one to talk to because I have a lot of trust issues with anyone in my unit, and I just need someone to talk to.

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need some one 2 talk 2

nonnie mous — Wed, 21 Jan 2009 00:48:34 GMT

Hi my name is irrelevant, i need some one 2 talk 2 n understand me!! i have sooooo much goin thrw my head, n its allll bad things!! i thought they woudnt come back cuz my age but its back i dnt knw who 2 talk to heeeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllpppppppppppp mmmmmmmmme iiii fffffeeeeeeeeeeelllllllllllllllllssssssssssssbbbbb baaaaaaadddddddd

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am i just being stupid?

rylee88 — Mon, 19 Jan 2009 03:51:17 GMT

i have a pretty decent life, but for some reason, i'm not happy.
i am 20, but can't seem to get myself to go to college, i guess in fear of failure. i have an awesome boyfriend, who even though i don't get to see him as often as i would like because of his job, he loves me. he even pays thousands of dollars to fly me to him a lot.
all of my friends are getting married and having kids. i'm not. even friends that didn't even plan on anything... it's happening to. that is one of my biggest goals in life, and i can't seem to accomplish it. does my boyfriend not want to marry me? am i not good enough?
i do have a lot of health problems. asthma. chronic genetic migraines. depression. RSD. there's always something wrong, and not by choice. i have been having to undergo pain blocks that burn the nerves in my head, thinking maybe that'll help with the migraines... but that just makes me feel even more broken. unwanted.
my pain doctor has recommended that i see a psychologist, but i can't seem to make myself go. i'm not comfortable. although, i do take antidepressants... sometimes i just can't help but cry. little things have been setting me off lately... i just don't know what to do.
is there anyone who can help me?

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Fearful of being beat over grades

James — Sat, 10 Jan 2009 05:07:56 GMT

I'm in half advanced classes but I don't really belong in them. I'm not the best student and it takes me alot of extra work to get average but I try my hardest to do so so I can get good grades. Despite this my dad, who's smart and has work done easily, won't settle for less than A's and B's and when I get that I have to get all A's next. I've had alot of trouble in Art believe it or not, and the teacher doesn't help much at all and slacks off often, neglecting to grade papers on time sometimes and when she screws up, she pins it on the students and uses everything against us. She says I talk back and speak inappropriately with the other students (though the one's near me have been ignoring me for a few months), she claims I don't turn anything in and that I'm incredibly disrespectful. I currently am failing but all the papers she claimed I was missing were there, she just didn't grade them. She sent an e-mail to my dad about my 'behaviour', and he's been screaming and cussing about it as well as my grade (even though I returned several ungraded papers to the teacher today to make it up despite it being done on time in the first place). I really don't know what to do because this is the class I try the hardest in and I don't talk much unless to ask for instructions. My dad treated my older half-brother (his step-son) the same way and eventually began to beat him often. I'm very afraid that if my grades don't get better he'll start beating me as well. When I tried to tell him my side of the story he claimed I was talking back as well when I was only defending myself, and without attitude. He said it was the way I was talking, which it couldn't be because I was crying and sobbing at the time, so it wouldn't make sense. I've never had a problem with a teacher like this and I don't know what to do. I feel worthless and small. I've dealt with teachers (not as bad as the Art one) and bullies alot but I always looked up to my dad and didn't expect this from him. I still am crying at the moment. I'm not sure if I even have a question, or if I just want to tell someone this. If someone would please reply I'd appreciate it alot, thank you very much in advance.

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GENETIC Depression?

Alps — Tue, 06 Jan 2009 00:51:02 GMT

Just got a message from my sis saying pretty much, our depression is genetic and we have to take meds. (She is going to a psychiatrist who said this). I just crashed and burned big time with no apparent trigger. Is there always something that triggers depression? COULD it be strictly a chemical/genetic reaction?

I do all I hear of to keep from being depressed. I exercise, meditate, yoga, relaxation exercises, positive thinking leaves me nauseous. Do I need to figure out what caused this last episode? or can I blame mom n pop, take my meds and stop being angry?

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Feeling like whats the point

Angela — Fri, 02 Jan 2009 15:20:17 GMT

I have had depression on and off for most of my life. Tried most of the meds that were out there. I hav been good for the last several years but last year it all came back.

I had two children back to back. I was working two part time jobs while my bf at the time was working 3rd shift. Him and his family were ganging up on me for being a "bad" parent. It sent me over hte edge and we moved down to florida to be closer to my family. In the process of my healing, he left me and our children for a 18 yr old boy. I'm 30 and he's 28. I lost my job and had to move back in with my family. I have two little girls, i'm broke and i stopped taking care of myself.

I keep looking at my girls and thinking to myself god whats the point. I cant take care of them. My parents do most of it especially the financial part. When i talk to my mom about how i feel and how i am feeling frustrated, sad and worthless all i hear is that she is going thru depression too. She doesn't need to hear my story when she is dealing iwth her own problems.

I just feel like giving up sometimes.

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Wife Walked out I am Bipolar and have Post Polio I am disabled

Jim Mac — Wed, 31 Dec 2008 04:08:48 GMT

My wife walked out and wants a divorce. I was recently diagnosed with pOST POLIO sYNDROME and Bi Polar. I am disabled and working through both. I am 51 and this is tough. I need as much spiritual help and prayers I can get. She is the LOVE OF MY LIFE.

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I want to just stop breathing

Annette — Mon, 22 Dec 2008 19:29:00 GMT

I'm having so severe depression and anxiety that my job is suffering. I had an intervention with my boss and she has given me two weeks to try and get some help. I went to the Dr. and started Zoloft but I need to be better now. I either feel to much or nothing. I forget things, I'm rude without even being aware of it. I hate this. I don't even know where to begin. If I try to talk I cry. I can't see me going on this way forever and I am afraid if I lose my job I'll be so far gone nothing will bring me back. I don't want my family and friends to know this about me

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How To Overcome

Danella — Thur, 11 Dec 2008 08:26:10 GMT

How Do I Overcome This State Of Mind!!
Depression Is Killing Me!!!
Im Cutting Myself...
Im Hurting Myself..
Please Help Me!!
I Feel So Alone In The World. .

Give Me Some Advice To Help Over This!!!

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It's back

cathy — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 01:32:00 GMT

I have been depression free for about 10 years, I have concluded that it is back again. the 1rst few weeks I thought hmmm why am I feeling so bad? Then I tried positive thinking for the next few weeks, with no success. Then tried just to ignore it.

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Nobody to talk to

Teresa Wilburn — Tue, 25 Nov 2008 23:21:09 GMT

I don't have anyone to talk to. My family doesn't care and I live alone. Please help

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